visualizing my awesomeness.

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You know what's kind of embarrassing (apart from a neck brace)? When you ask at a restaurant if a certain meal is gluten free, and then they tell you they have a gluten free menu, and you get all excited about it, and then they bring out a bright green menu with a leafy floral design all over it
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It makes you feel kind of lame. I am a steak and bacon eating machine, don't give me a menu that is bright green. It's a little condescending people. On the upside, loving how mainstream gluten free is. On the downside, it's probably because so many people are suffering from celiac disease. Awkward.

I was thinking about the power of visualization yesterday. When I was trying to get my kipping pull ups, I would think about the movement when I was in bed (and dreaming... obsessed much?), or at at work, and would just see myself getting up over the bar. Obviously slipping off the bar wasn't part of the visualization. But anyway, once I could feel the movement, and see myself doing it in my head, it came surprisingly easy by the time I was on the bar. So I've been thinking about what it's going to be like once I get my brace off and start getting back at the gym. I keep visualizing myself getting all upset and annoyed at feeling incapable of doing the movements, and we all know that isn't helpful. So I'm trying to see myself starting off as a beginner, and not expecting anything from it. Which is really difficult for me, just quietly. I know mentally it's going to be tough, probably worse than the physical rehabilitation. No one likes having to start from scratch, but we're human beings and we love instant gratification. And really, you only have one spine, so probably should take care of it. Basically, I need to visualize me being awesome. Considering I've never broken a bone before, technically I still haven't because they're only fractures, but I think I did a pretty good job for my first serious injury. Just sayin'. By the way, only 9 days left until the brace is off. Yeah, you know it!

Everyone always asks me what's the first thing I'll do when I get the neck brace off. I have planned a few things, they are as follows in no particular order:
- Get my hair done. I haven't worn my hair down for 3 months, it needs some loving.
- Go to the spa and get a full body treatment. I think I deserve it really.
- Turn my head to the left and right without moving my entire body. Yeah, kind of self-explanatory.
- Put on a dress and high heels. This one I'm super excited about, but will need to take it easy because I can totally see myself falling over and breaking my neck...
- Wear a jacket. Surprisingly difficult to do with a neck brace on.
- Scratch my neck with ease. No chopstick needed.
- Go to the gym. Duh.
- Go shopping. Duh.

My room is really messy right now. And this morning before work I picked everything up off the floor and put it on my bed, so that I could clean up once I got home. Well I forgot I did that. So after an 8 hour shift, I get home and there's shit all over my bed. Uhhh... Why did I think that was a good idea? I'm just going to throw it all back on the floor anyway. Plus I have a bun headache. Most people would not be familiar with this term. But I have very long thick hair. And just to give you too much information, when I shower, I can feel my hair in my butt crack. Yeah, things just got a lot more personal. Anyway, apart from that feeling totally freaking weird, sometimes I wear my hair in a big bun on top of my head. Then if I'm not so lucky, I get a headache from it. If that isn't a first world problem I don't know what is.

P.s. I'm watching Happy Gilmore right now. Classic.


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